What I Wore...

...for four.

Shirt + shirt + skirt + shoes = $4.

Synchro-Intimacy

This morning's message was about the intimacy of the relationship we have with God. (Exceptional message!) After Reverend Ausley's 'Bride of Christ 101', he said, "Now, what you have to ask yourself is, 'Do I have that kind of relationship with God?'."

In perfect unison, my husband and I took deep breaths - long, deep inhale, pause at top, long exhale - all as if we were performing a syncronized water ballet.  So then we giggled and bumped each other.  Honey leaned over and said, "and that's WHY He wants [this kind of relationship.]  So that even our breathing is in sync with His."

And Now THE REST OF THE STORY...

So then we went to Sunday School and today we talked about what it means to revere God.  As we discussed the means by which we put reverence into practice, I told the above story.

Honey piped up and said, “that’s NOT what I said.”  He explained, “the first thing I said was ‘we are as one’ but when you looked puzzled, I said, ‘that’s why we breathed together, because we’re as one.  We’re in perfect unison.”

It’s the same message. 

Honey said it one way and I understood him, even if in different words - because of the intimacy of our relationship.

And it’s the same message.

Reverence of God means (a lot of things including) that every moment, every action, every breath you take is with Him in mind. “Respect, awe, regarding God as holy” means leading a life in intimate synchronicity with Him.

Still...

not shaving my legs...

but who's ever gonna know?!



Body Typing

I've heard them/seen them countless times and you must have as well.
You know - instructions for dressing the "pear shape," for flattering the "boyish" figure, etc.

What I hope to do here is give some practical direction that you haven't seen or heard in any other place.  Or maybe I'm just breaking down the "rules" for a more practical application.

This is fairly simple, really.  While it's presently very hot outdoors and while I happen to have (what I, personally, consider) a pretty hot shoe collection, I must dress the body I have.  And so...







*When your knee is torn asunder - wear flats.


*When your back rebels and twangs a tune as as you cross the floor (which means NO bending over to shave your legs) -
wear long britches.






See, dressing the body you have is a cinch.  At least if your body type is "falling apart."

A Watery Grave

About a year ago, a bag was stolen from my truck and thrown into the culvert around the corner from my house. The bag contained the Bible that my mother had given to me more than a decade before - the one that lit my path as I found my way back home, the one I clung to as my father passed away, the one I read through as my children struggled in their daily walks. It was My Bible, you know what I’m sayin’?

After finding the bag floating in the swamp water, my gracious and gallant husband waded out and, for nearly an hour, raked the bottom, attempting to find my Bible. He was able to retrieve all the contents of the bag and even most of what had been inside the Bible’s cover, but he could not find the book itself.

photo credit: Nancy Garbarini 2009

For a while after the event, nearly every time I drove past the culvert, I stopped and stood and stared, as if my Bible would magically rise to the top - like some scene from Camelot. I know, I know. I don’t really want a mud-soaked remnant. It’s just one of my human shortcomings - that thinking that I just need to know. Know what I’m sayin’?

I did think I’d given up the ghost finally. However, on recent walks, I’ve found myself stopping and staring long into the swamp water again, trying to discern a bit of leopard print (my Bible cover was cool like that.) Yesterday, what rose up to me was these words, "Why are you searching an empty grave?"

"Remember what He said to you while He was still here."

Got it. Got it, for real. I do know what I need to know because that Word is alive.  There is no grave that can contain it.

Falling Short

This dress is too short. 
At least for me.
At least for me to feel comfortable.

But it was only as I headed out the door that I really caught a glimpse of myself, and suddenly, I knew some things.

I realized, for instance, just how inattentive I'd been to the details.

I recognized a shift, ever so subtle,
in my priorities.

I remembered that I'd see a specialist the next day to discuss my results.

And I understood - though I'd never imagined that I would - just what it's like for women in those very first days of waiting and uncertainty.

I've fallen short where you are concerned, having looked at myself but failing to see you in your troubles.  I pray with deep sincerity that you will have peace in your times of need and that you will never feel unseen.

For a bit more perspective, click: Just Plain Wrong.

Just Plain Wrong

When I made the appointment, I knew that my "issue" would turn out to be a fluke.

When the xray tech asked to expedite the next appointment and as I watched the ultrasound screen, I decided that this was not going to go so well, after all.

As I waited for the results call, I convinced myself that they hadn't actually seen anything.  Between that call and waiting to see the specialist, I prepared for the worst possible news.

Waiting - again - for final test results, I changed my mind entirely and decided that there's absolutely nothing going on here.

Nothing to see here, people.  Move along.

Today, as I'm writing this (Tuesday morning), as I'm in the countdown to going back to the specialist's office for those results, what I actually do know for certain is that I've been just plain wrong about this all along.  Not about the "yes" or "no", the "do" or "don't", but about attempting to determine what is coming for me.

See, I can plan for my future.  And I can speculate, sure.  But only God knows what my future holds.

For You formed my inward parts;
You covered me in my mother’s womb.
I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
Marvelous are Your works,
And that my soul knows very well.
My frame was not hidden from You,
When I was made in secret,
And skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.
Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed.
And in Your book they all were written,
The days fashioned for me,
When as yet there were none of them.
Psalm 139:13-16

Thank You, Lord, for your peace and provision in all seasons.  Please grant the same to any who read these words.